Dark Static Moments

I feel like I've been going nowhere in my life for years.
All these empty promises, empty threats...
It was such a dark static moment when we met.
nothing felt right, maybe thats why I went so far, too far, beyond sorrow, pain or lust.
The empty silences in our forced conversation trying to be what I cannot be.
I never felt so alone in my entire life.
So alone and desperate to be somewhere else.
What in this world can change me?
What in this world can rouse me from my sleep?
My eyes... May be open but I see nothing.
My mouth may be open but it is not words I am forming not in any language you can understand.
I hear what you're saying; but it makes no sense to me, it never did how did I come to this.
When did I start, dead to the world the word is black and white in my soundless dreams.
There is nothing I can do so carve me up one last time and leave me from the dogs.
I have no pity for these grey lines. No remorse and NO PITY!
That carve me up and sell my soul.
What is worth? Is it worth your love or your "compassion"?
I think you know the answer...
Every time I dream. I seem to leave it all standing at some deserted train station.
Waiting, watching with and old timetable in my hand.
Willing another cold morning, in another city or another sunset surrounded by strangers waiting, watching...
I NEED SOMEWHERE TO REST MY HEAD...